I was just sitting in my living room talking to matt on the phone when all the sudden woosh BAM!!! My front door flies open because it’s so windy outside. I half expected someone to be standing in the doorway, well happy Halloween I guess.
so in 20 days i will be 18. as excited as i am about that, i kinda not excited at the same time. first of all i feel like my dad is gunna be a lot tougher on me once im technically an adult. i mean i know it sounds stupid and totally spoiled but normally my dad wouldnt hesitate to give me money to go to a football game, or go do something. and i mean im definitely greatful when he does give me money so dont get me wrong, but since i quit my job hes just been an asshole about money. like if i ask for $5 hell be like,”bradley, what about all that money u got, maybe u shoulda kept that job.”but hes all sarcastic and has a really mocking tone in his voice when he says it. and it really pisses me off when he says shit like that cuz its like hes trying to prove something to me, that i need a job in high school maybe? i disagree. hes always been like pushing me to stay busy all the time, and i really dont know why. its not like im getting in trouble or doing drugs or anything. hopefully he doesnt completely cut me off when i turn 18 and be like hey ur an adult now, its time to act like one. hope everything works out. sorry this post is so negative and not fun to read
i should feel overwhelmed right now. today had so much shit going on in school but i feel like its normal. weird. nothing strenuous ever happens in tech theatre so its all good there. actually had forensic science homework today but it took me like 2 seconds to do it. we played a review game in math. kyle catalano’s little brother whom we call cat got really competitive in math today and yelled i will stab you with a knife to another kid, he wasnt serious ofcourse but it still crossed the line. 4th hour we had a sub teacher, so ofcourse mrs. grasso would give us a shit load of busy work. video work sheet, article + worksheet, and a guided reading. i know thats not much to u college kids but im a slow reader and i had to do it all by the end of the hour. then 5th hour i got media and ive just been handed like 3 projects to do: grease commercial, family pics project, and underage drinking project (worth a big scholarship though). so ya busy ass day
i just basically fought with my dad about this whole NMU scholarship competition thing. i fucked up and didnt apply for this other scholarship that goes along with it. basically i had to write an essay and resume and i didnt do that because the essay called for a specific leadership experience, nothing in particular came to mind. anyway my dad basically said,”well then how botu u go to OCC for 2 years, save ur money, and go to northern later” but he was pissed when he said it. fuck that shit, pissed me off so bad.
good day, made up for yesterday. woke up late, went discin with jack ryan. man i havent been discin in a while, sucked it up fa sho. sat around the house for a bit. then went to caribou with lauren, we talked for like an hour and a half. it was nice. so over all good day.
there was a rail jam in the parking lot of TWC, a shop in keego harbor, today. i attended (obviously) and it was ok. idk why i do that contest every year tho. its never really that much fun, and its always really sketchy set up but at least it was snowboarding.
i ran into doug zazacky at caribou afer the fooseball game today. btw clarkston destroyed lake orion, hell ya. but ya we caught up, he asked me how lacrosse was goin, told him im not playin, and he was definitely disappointed, but he took it better than the majority of the lax team. he was kinda mad at first but in like 15 minutes he was over it, that made me smile. i told him about musical and when when we ended the conversation he goes,”you better sing ur fucking heart out” thatll definitely stick with me for a while.
So today in Forensic Science, Mr. Brosky was all like, “Why don’t you guys clean of your desks with this bleach.” (Holds up bleach in a spray bottle thing.) Being the neat freak that I am (thats right, I didn’t care that much about the germs, the desk just had pencil and shit all over it.), I walked up and tool it. I sprayed my desk, and Lauren Culver’s who sits next to me. Then, I was like “hey Brad, do you want me to spray yours?” “Sure Anne Marie!” Brad sits across from me. So logically I should have thought that if I were to spray it acrss the table, it would more than likely hit Brad as well as the table. I’m not much of a logical thinker… So yes, Brad’s beautiful, black hoodie ended up with pink dots ALL over it. Shitttt. He was so lovely, assuring me that it was not a problem.
I took his hoodie home, and I plan to color in every pink dot with a permanant black marker. The moral of the story…Sorry Brad.
anne marie, take as long as you like with the hoodie. the fact that u feel bad enuff to fix it is really cool. so ya i have tons of hoodies, so whenever u get around to it is fine, no rush.
today i was just doin my work in pre calc when i got a note from the office that said i needed to see mr. kaul immediately. me and cat were both given this note. neither of us had a clue what wed done wrong. cat got a bus referral. then kaul called me into his office. he started with,”ok so this is going to be a bit awkward… is this you? (shows me a picture of myself caught on a security camera)” “yes thats me.” we talk some more and eventually he says a laptop was stolen from the drama hallway, tices room i believe. i was in the place it happened at the time it happened, on the day it happened. i was seen bolting out the hallway, which was suspicious activity. after i said i didnt do it, and explained why i was in the hallway at the time, he said that he believed it wasnt me and that i was free to go back to class. i hadnt been that scared in a long time. now i didnt take the laptop but the thought of being accused and that i could get in trouble for this scared the shit out of me. depending on the cost of the laptop that couldve easily been a felony. so it felt weird that kaul trusted me so much seeing as how he doesnt really know me. later that day i talked to mr. banks about what happened and he goes oh ya they sent this pic around to all the teachers to see if they could identify me. banks ofcourse knew it was me and proceeded to tell kaul,”hey this kid is definitely not someone who would do something like this (aka ur barkin up the wrong tree).” i believe thats why kaul trusted me so much. heres to u banks, thanks for the help :D.
was busy, missing even one day of school seems like nothing but apparently, we did quite a bit on thursday. today was nothin but work for 4 straight classes, my only class off was 1st hour with tice. thank god for that class. i really wish i could understand the way other people think, it would make my life easier.
its been a rough week. i went to the visitation tonight, i hate seeing my friends cry, its an awful thing to see. although i didnt know tom very well, it still hurts to know that hes not here anymore. i didnt know if i was going to go to the funeral or not tomorrow, mr. brosky talked me into going. other than that theres been other shit on my mind which made this week even rougher, just shit i need to get over. in the words of jon spiris,”you’re gunna look back on this week later in life and realize it wasnt as rough as you thought it was at the time” im glad i have him in my life. If this situation with tom has taught me anything, its that we dont have much time on this earth. you only live once, and we cant afford to waste any time.
today i realized that we havent much time on this earth, wasting even a day is something you cant afford to do. so i went skating, i skated from my dads to downtown clarkston. i chose not to drive there because i just felt like skating. it honestly was so good to just skate for a long ass time, it really took my mind off everything.
in 5th hour today i got matts text, we exchanged greetings and he asked me if id heard about tom. he told me he committed suicide last night. i didnt know what to say, i felt like i hit a wall. a lot of my friends were close to him, i feel for em, i wasnt ever real close to him but i still knew him. its weird to think that someone i know that is barely a year older than me… is dead now. i cant imagine what some of my friends are going through. this is so fucked up.
super fun night. my night began with me picking up lauren and forgetting the corsage at my house lol. we left her house to go get it and she almost left the boutoniere, what a great way to start off lol. anywho after that we went to tabithas house for pics and it was cold as hell. after that we went to the classiest establishment we could think of for food…subway. tessa and conrad wanted to go there and me and lauren were down. then we walked around kroger and got stared at. after that we finally set off for the dance, we tried to huddle for warmth in the line to get in but i dont think it worked al that well, maybe for tessa cuz she was in the middle lol. had a super fun time dancing with lauren, especially when we left to find her friend rachel, failed at that, then tried to find conrad and tessa again, short people are not easy to pick out of a crowd. once the dance was over we went to bens for a bit, i thought wed go there cuz wed actually know some people, that was not the case. we get there and its a shit load of bens other friends that listen to hardcore music that r ok to hang around but not in big groups lol. point is i actually didnt kno a lot of people. then i took lauren home and drove to the school parking lot and sat in my car until i could think of something to do. i ended up going back to bens and all the people i didnt like had left so i stayed. we watched snoop dogg’s: Hood of Horrors. aka funniest movie ever susta. bens girl had to leave at 1 so we all peaced but i cam beack an hour later to drive him and connor around to places. finally i took them home and got to my house and went to bed at like 4:30ish. all in all at was a really fun and memorable night
2 weeks ago I was in math class and some randy chick came up to me and asked for tutoring when she noticed I got a 105% on my exam. Noticing that she kinda resembled a mix between Kim kardashian and Megan…fox I quickly abided being the gentleman I am. 2 weeks later through all our work she asked if I could cone over and tutor at her house. 5 min later a man that resembled the hulk and kimbo slice came and sat at our table. After I slighlty soiled my pants, I put 2 and 2 together. That was her bf. He found out I was going to her house for xtra tutoring and got a funny feeling. I QuickLy answered with “don’t worry about it dude I’m gay”. I’ve never beenso afraid in my life.
hahahahahahaha, what an excuse. ive never been so scared that id tell someone im gay an be legit about it
The Spanish lauguage I would like to set it on fire. Today started off with Mulan! It was pretty neat. Then the day just got…long? I dunno it just felt like a billion hours to get over with. I officaly going to Homecoming dateless but in a group which I think could be better, espcially for my first time. Oh ad I had the absoluly weirdest day dream in geometry, It was Issac’s open house but it went oh so wrong and just odd. I’m pretty sure I was laughing out loud though because my friend Travis punched me in the side, whoops. But I’m rambling so I’ll stop :).
Oh and I’m pretty pumped for Battle Of The Bands but I’ll miss gLee :(.
so today was pretty sweet, it was easy as usual. so i went to ask lauren to homecoming after school but she wasnt there. needless to say i was freakin out so i called emily and figured out what to do. i filmed the powderpuff game then hauled ass over to spotlight dance where me, nathan and conrad all hid behind this trailer and popped out when lauren and the other dancers came out and held up a giant question mark and played the song that is played wen u get rick rolled. i asked her, she said yes, im happy :)
ahh todays adventures were quite fun. megan picked me up this morning and we got breakfast at the capre grille, o wait she got breakfast since i had already eaten and then gave me food from her plate. we then proceeded to go to that halloween store on dixie, didnt look like it was open with the broken windows and what not so we left. then we went to the mall, i got jeans and a hoodie, se got a top. btw these jeans are white, it was one of my goals to get white jeans, check that one off. then we kidnapped nathan and went back to megans and watched lord of the rings: the return of the king, o the hobitses. anyway today was awesome, tomorrow will be cool cuz everyone at CHS still that was tagged in the note and is cool, is gunna wear there clothes inside out rather than wear a college shirt. fight the power man!
lately, saturday dance practices have been killing me! i can barely walk out of the studio, and have to actually sleep when i get home. and i hate naps.
homecoming is in a week. bri and mitch wont let me work that day. and im not sure why i want to so bad. its so typically “high school” but is it so much to ask to want to go with someone who cares enough to ask me in person?
…not. literally sat at home all day, couldnt drive anywhere, couldnt walk or rollerblade! cuz of the rain, my best friend forgot to text me back so we could hang (he was gettig his suit for homecoming and the kid tends to forget to text people a lot), the other 2 best friends that arent in drama club (except connor) r in trouble for a while and cant hang so ya. i guess today was my day to just get really bored, cuz tomorrow is gunna be so much fun, and being bored today will make tomorrow better. cant wait to see u tomorrow megan
today me and nathan hung out. now u may be asking urself, “how in the heck did brad get to nathans house if he cant drive his car until tuesday?” well lets just say i broke out the old blades and went for a roll. it was so much fun, actin all stupid n shit. so me and nathan just hung out, went to the football game and hot tubbed it when we got back to his house. after all that i decided to roll on home, since no one was on the rode i skated up it (the road by the highschool football field). while i was skating i saw a shadowy figure in the road, i started to get creeped out cuz i couldnt tell what it was, pretty sure it was a dear but ill never know. anyway when i went by the spot i thought i saw it sun off to i was like hardcore freaking out and i skated faster than i ever have lol. then i went to megans for a bit and we watched some fast and furious tokyo drift, got bored of that and watched some black dude, stoned out of his mind, do stand up comedy…it was hilarious. now im home, work meeting in the morning then work after that-fml
so today was the first official mimes meeting, we decided on shirt designs and we were told to start thinkin about what our symbol is going to be. i decided to carry the star tradition. rather than brad u may now all call me star child… joke.